by: Tracey-Ann Nadine Hutchinson
To my family,
Rather?to whom It May concern
I?ll be gone now,
I?ll be leaving,
But wait, before you start rejoicing,
Let me tell you why,
(not that you care),
but maybe I can drive a few bullets
into your hearts
(through words, that is)
like you did me.
ALL OF YOU!
You Beasts!
You tore me, betrayed me, lied to me,
And poisoned others against me.
That is why I have to go now,
That is why I have to leave you,
It?s because of who you are,
That has made me who I am,
You! Beasts / Witches / Devils / Ogres,
I doubt it that you?re human.
But then, I?m not either,
No mortal could ever be as complexioned,
As distorted, as angry or as betrayed
As I have been and as I now am.
Only mere creatures should be treated half so.
That is why I have to go now,
That is why I have to leave you,
Because you defaced me,
Dehumanized me, and the worst,
Made me ignorant,
Ignorant to who I am,
My identity lost, my self mow darkened,
I cannot see who / what I was,
Or who / what I now am,
But merely the writer / sender
Of this letter
That I hope you all will weep over,
Will be guilty over,
But, that again,
I doubt.
So, now you know why I have to go.
So, now you know why I have to leave you.
I believe my task is done,
I have written / my heart has spoken,
But let me now cease this flow of emotions
Before your boredom overflows
Before your blank gazes or your prolonged yawns
Cover my heart,
Let me cease.
Let me go.
Let me Leave.
23/March/2003
